Robots Don’t Sleep

Oftentimes, I find myself at a point where I can take a chance to reflect on where I am in my life and how I got there. Strangely, I arrived at that point a couple weeks ago and I still feel like I am there. I feel pretty good with my identity and I just feel like there are a few things that need to be refined before I’m entirely satisfied. However, as always, certain things happen that cause a shift in my thinking and I have found myself still staying up late and thinking at night.

One event in particular was the fact that one of my brothers was in a car accident this week. He was the passenger and his friend’s car ended up flipping one and a half times while they were driving home from golfing. Luckily, neither of them was hurt, aside from feeling extremely sore the next day. Thank God he’s the only one of my brothers that I never had to yell at for not wearing his seatbelt in my car. When I found out, I immediately wished that I was home. I just can’t imagine if things had been worse and I were stuck here in California. However, things were fine and I just continued worrying all day, reflecting on everything and trying to remember that things like this happen, and will continue happening. There’s no stopping it, so I realized that you just need to accept it and move on.

In other news, I’m just about done wrapping up my first major project at InterKnowlogy. It went extremely well, and I’m very excited to share the details of the project as soon as it’s ok for me to do so. This was my first chance to make an impression, and I really hope that I have shown them what I am capable of.

I will also be visiting Utah this week from Thursday til Saturday to represent InterKnowlogy at Neumont’s quarterly Career Week event. I will be presenting during lunch, covering the more technical details about IK and probably showing off some demos of the projects we’ve done. I’m really excited about spending a few days back up in Utah and seeing friends. I can’t wait to BBQ!

Finally, I’d just like to say that I love Grand Theft Auto 4. That is all.

So I went on a bit of a hiatus from writing. It wasn’t just from this blog, but from all of my online entries. I lasted a couple weeks, but the main reason that I’m back is because I really felt something missing… much like anything that you cut out of your life for a short period of time. I felt that a lot of things kept building inside that I just kind of kept there - and as a result, they sort of lost their importance. Maybe not exactly their importance per se, but they definitely lost something. These thoughts just sort of bubble up in my head and then die out… floating out into the atmosphere and forming white fluffy clouds. I guess I have a need to form them into written words and let them settle somewhere else - somewhere where I can read them later and remember what I felt these past few weeks, even if it’s not anything especially monumental.

Several things have happened since I wrote last. I spent a couple weeks in New Mexico, not really doing much other than hanging out with some really old friends and eating. I ate a lot. I’m pretty sure I gained about 10 pounds from Thanksgiving and Christmas break alone. I’m definitely going to try to get rid of that within the next few months. I also got to see some really old friends that I haven’t seen in a very long time, which was worth the trip in itself. Other than that, I spent my time waiting for Christmas to come… I spent a lot of money on Christmas. I decided to just get gifts for my family this year, but man it was still expensive. I’m a money-spending machine, I swear.

Now, I’m in Austin, Texas with my friend Mike on a mancation. Yeah that’s right, a mancation. Before I left though, I spent two days in Albuquerque with Josh and Aaron, and I just have to say that that was a pretty interesting trip. Interesting is not a strong enough word, though. Life-affirming, maybe? It was like waking up from a weird dream, like looking around suddenly and wondering for a split-second where you are and how you got there. I can’t explain it any more than this, really. I played at an open mic night with Josh and my friend Meredith. Man, it was amazing. I really miss playing music publicly. I need to do it more often. I absolutely have to make a note to do it when I get back to Utah. It was just… awesome. A great feeling.

So, now that Christmas is over and New Year’s has come and gone, I guess it’s only appropriate to say that I’m anticipating school. From one countdown to another, I suppose. There is more to come, so just hold on and keep singing that same song over and over again.