Robots Don’t Sleep

Oftentimes, I find myself at a point where I can take a chance to reflect on where I am in my life and how I got there. Strangely, I arrived at that point a couple weeks ago and I still feel like I am there. I feel pretty good with my identity and I just feel like there are a few things that need to be refined before I’m entirely satisfied. However, as always, certain things happen that cause a shift in my thinking and I have found myself still staying up late and thinking at night.

One event in particular was the fact that one of my brothers was in a car accident this week. He was the passenger and his friend’s car ended up flipping one and a half times while they were driving home from golfing. Luckily, neither of them was hurt, aside from feeling extremely sore the next day. Thank God he’s the only one of my brothers that I never had to yell at for not wearing his seatbelt in my car. When I found out, I immediately wished that I was home. I just can’t imagine if things had been worse and I were stuck here in California. However, things were fine and I just continued worrying all day, reflecting on everything and trying to remember that things like this happen, and will continue happening. There’s no stopping it, so I realized that you just need to accept it and move on.

In other news, I’m just about done wrapping up my first major project at InterKnowlogy. It went extremely well, and I’m very excited to share the details of the project as soon as it’s ok for me to do so. This was my first chance to make an impression, and I really hope that I have shown them what I am capable of.

I will also be visiting Utah this week from Thursday til Saturday to represent InterKnowlogy at Neumont’s quarterly Career Week event. I will be presenting during lunch, covering the more technical details about IK and probably showing off some demos of the projects we’ve done. I’m really excited about spending a few days back up in Utah and seeing friends. I can’t wait to BBQ!

Finally, I’d just like to say that I love Grand Theft Auto 4. That is all.

This weekend was spent on a nice, short trip home to see family that I haven’t seen in years. Reunions aren’t really my thing, but it was relaxing to spend an entire day at a lake in the mountains. Between barbequeing, not catching any fish, drinking with relatives, and playing guitar in the rain, I have to say that it was a success. It’s so strange any time I go back home, but this time I got to meet a ton of new people, and the definite lack of stress that comes with fishing in the mountains was welcomed with open arms.

The weirdest part about this weekend was seeing everyone grown up. It’s amazing how much 2-5 years can change people - sometimes for the better, sometimes for the worse. It also forced me to take an introspective look at myself and how much I’ve changed over the years. I won’t go into any details, but it was probably the first time I’ve dug that deep into myself without sinking into a slump. Turning myself inside out was never this painless, and it was never this rewarding. I didn’t think my perspective could get much fresher, but it did, and it was a pretty amazing experience.

Also, I saw The Dark Knight twice, and am planning on seeing it again - hopefully in IMAX. That movie has restored my faith in a lot of ways, and it will remain in my mind for a long time as one of the first great things I have experienced here in California. The first of many. Right along with watching the sun set behind the ocean. Right along with conquering my first mountain on a bike.

For now, I just need to work on taking things one step at a time.